Well here I am in Sept. and I think about all of the time that has passed since my last blog, one month I think and I realize that it's time for a "do-over". As a parent I have given my children many chances to have do overs, and now I think that it is time for me to give one to myself. So if you can all handle it I am going to do a "do-over"
I have only managed to keep 1 and 1/2 pounds off from my last post over a month ago. So right there that tells you that I have not stuck to my eating regimen. In fact, I have taken carte blanche to eat whatever I have wanted to and I justified it by saying I am moving again and by moving again I had to move my son here to TX from KY. For me that meant flying to KY and getting the car ready and then driving back to TX. We all know that it is never as easy to stay on target when you are eating out all of the time and are at different peoples houses.
While in KY I went to North Carolina to the Unique Sheep retreat and had an absolute blast!!! I am already looking forward to returning to the retreat next year. Merike Saarniit was our knitting teacher and she was amazing and I learned so many new things!!! She is teaching on a cruise to the Baltic Sea next August and I am dreaming about how I can be a student on her cruise. Maybe if I just teach a few more classes and get another job I can swing it financially. What do you think? Not only is Merike teaching but Anna Zilboorg is also teaching too. What a dynamic duo!!!! I must find a way to go, that's all there is to it! Perhaps it could be a gift to myself when I meet my goal? Hmmmm that is a thought, and definitely a wonderful incentive to reach my goal.
I must tell you about my fiber fast and let you know how it's going. I picked up some yarns that I had ordered from my LYS in KY before the fast started and they came in and the shop held them for me until I returned. There were 4 skeins. One is for my daughter to knit her a pair of socks for Christmas and the other 3 are for a shawl. The colors are beautiful, they are from three irish girls, so of course they are lovely. And I must just say that the only thing I purchased from the retreat was one set of pima cotton to go with the another set that I already have from the smell the roses club that I belong to. I can make a larger shawl with the yarn by adding both sets together. Merike, who designed the shawl was wearing her shawl at the retreat and she had made it bigger for herself and I loved it and thought that I would love to make my shawl bigger like hers so as luck would have it Kelly had an extra set of the pima cotton and I was able to score it and now I will have an amazing shawl like Merikes. I know that technically that was breaking the fast and yet you have to tell me that you would have made the same choice that I did. Plus I do just have to tell you that my fiber fast buddy has been way worse than me. She has "caved" several times so I don't feel too guilty. So I guess it's time for a "do-over" for the fiber fast as well.
Today I went to the outlet malls in San Marcos to do some shopping with my friend and my daughter. My daughters birthday is coming up soon and I wanted to get some ideas for her gifts. I guess I am in somewhat of a contemplative mood today, and I just have to say that as I sat on a bench waiting for my daughter to come out of a store I was people watching. I tend to do that when I am just waiting. I often times wonder about the people that I am watching. I wonder about their lives, what they do, where they live and what kinds of hopes and dreams they have. I imagine them to have lives very similar to mine. I also must confess that I look at the womens bodies and I wonder if they are happy with them. I look at thin women and overweight women as well. I know some overweight women who are very happy with their weight and then I know some very thin women who are very unhappy with their bodies. I honestly believe that we all have our own challenges and what I think about myself is all that really matters. It doesn't really work to compare myself to someone else or wish I were someone else, because in reality I might be way unhappier in their skin. Why is it that we judge others by looks? I know that I am just as guilty as the next person for looking at a person and judging them. It is not for me to judge anyone and yet I think it is human nature to do that. I have decided that every time I catch myself judging either someone else, or myself I will stop and send a blessing instead. I think that it is important for each of us to become a better observer of our thoughts. My goal for this coming week is to become a better observer of my thoughts. I challenge all of you reading to do the same and when observing, offer compassion and love instead of judgement.
I have learned along the way during this life, that when we give up something in our lives that we no longer desire, it is important to take on something that we do desire. As I let go of the judgement about my body, I am choosing to take on loving affirmations about my body. After all, it is the only body that I have.
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