I have been meaning to get to this blog for over a week now. I never know how often is an appropriate amount of time to go in between blogs. I guess I think there should be some magic formula to follow. Since it is early morning here in TX and my thoughts are about what has been going on with my body it must be the appropriate time to blog. Today is day 12 of juicing. Yes, I took the plunge and began juicing after I got back and got settled from my trip to KY. I am officially 16 pounds closer to my goal. Speaking of goals I did some re-evaluating about my goal. This is what I was thinking. I really have a set goal weight that I ultimately am choosing to weigh and it is a little more than the 100 pounds that originally set out to lighten up. It is actually 123.5 pds that I am intending to lighten up and so I have decided to embrace the final goal rather than 100 pds I am going for the full 123.5. Whoohoo--Yay me. If I look at it percentage wise I have already lightened up a little over 10%. How cool is that?
After my friend left nearly two weeks ago I joined a group that Tera Warner has on emotional eating and cravings. I read Angela Stokes Monarchs book called Raw emotions from cover to cover in a day and a half. It was very eye opening for me to read someone elses journey and see how similar our patterns are. This book was part of Tera program. Included in the program are various other reading materials and audio clips to listen to, teleseminars and conference calls re: emotional eating. I learned so much from them and will continue to replay them and re-read the books and booklets as well.
It's funny going back to juicing which I have done for about 2 weeks one other time in my life, all you do is drink. All day long. Juice, water, juice, water and of course go to the bathroom a lot too. : )
I am getting close to the two week mark and I am not sure how long I will stay on the juice. Everyday I think, will this be the day? I am just waiting for my body to tell me. Some days I feel like I am hungry and then I drink and I am fine. It's funny, for so many years I just ate my way through my days. I never truly knew whether I was hungry or not. I ate out of habit, I ate out of fear and I ate when I was happy, I ate when I was sad. Any excuse and I was eating. The whole time I was unconsciously doing that I was covering up things that I didn't really want to look at. Emotions that I didn't really want to feel. Now I am focusing on conscious eating and really paying attention to how I FEEL while I am eating instead of just doing the whole hand to mouth action out of habit. I intend to transition to completely raw food once the juice fast is over. I know that I feel best when I am putting live foods into my body. The cool thing is that I can already see a difference in my skin. I can tell on my forehead that my digestion is already returning to balance and the congestion between the eyes is smoothing out. I love that! I love how our body gives us clues as to how it is doing if only we pay attention to what it wants. For so long I have not paid attention and while it does no one any good to dwell on the past--I am sorry that I have neglected my body for so long. Neglecting my body has had consequences. I had to have my gall bladder removed in Jan of this year. That was a sign of toxicity built up inside. Appendicitis is also another sign that toxins are built up in our bodies. Most of the symptoms we have when our bodies are out of balance are just a way of our body telling us that we are out of balance and that it's time to do something about it. Do we really listen to our bodies or do we find a way to cover up the symptoms by taking another pill or potion? I think that our bodies are amazing and if we treat them just a little kinder they will continue to support us in this wonderful lifetime.
I have been knitting a test knit for a designer and the project is a wonderful wrap. This particular project has taken me far longer than I intended. It is full of wonderful patterns and cables which accounts for the extra time it has taken to knit it. I have been working hard on it as I have been juicing and I have thought that when I finally finish my test knit maybe I would end my juicing as well. It would be symbolic of finishing something and moving on to a new thing. I know that sounds kinda goofy. I had a goal to have it finished by this weekend and due to Olympic knitting and a trip back to KY my deadline is not going to be met. I figure that I have about 25 hours of knitting, at least, left to go. It keeps going on and on. That figures out to be quite a number of days left to work on it depending on the other things going on in my life and when I can get a few minutes to sit down and knit on it. I don't know if I will continue to juice that long or not--time will tell. I'll keep you posted. Once I finish this project I have a shawl to knit for the shawl exchange and then I am back to my plan of getting everything off my needles by Dec. 31 so I can start the new year off with a new project. I went over my lists yesterday and looked at all of the wonderful projects I have in my stash to knit and I have to say that it is sooooo super exciting to think of starting something new. I do have a few things that I have promised to knit for other people as well and I am excited that I will finally get to start on them as well. Yippee!
I still spend my fair share of time on the internet cruising Ravelry and all of my other favorite fiber sites such as Briar Rose, Miss Babs, Skeins ( have you seen their top drawer sock? AMAZING) and Fiber Optic and I am dreaming of new yarns to try and new patterns to add to my queue. I love dreaming and imagining because it stretches me. It allows me to look at things in a new way and see the possibilities that I might never have thought of before. During all of my exploring I look at the Rhinebeck site and I see all of the wonderful things that will be happening this year and I can't wait for next year!!! I am so excited within myself and I keep thinking of how I might win the lottery and then I could go this year. Doesn't that sound like a plan? I keep buying my lottery tickets : ) I know that knitting my stash down will allow and create more space for new to come in and that, too, is exciting. So unless the lottery comes through I will continue to wait for next year and I will know that Rhinebeck will wait for me and it will be even more wonderful than I imagined.
I will continue to take each day as it comes and remain as conscious as possible about my body and my stash and for today that's all I have. I will keep you posted and let you know how it goes.
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