I can't believe that it has been a whole week since I started my blog. So many things have happened. Many changes are taking place in my life. Last Sunday I boarded a plane for Austin, TX. My husband very recently got a job there with a new company. Which means that we have to move our family again. We just had our last move 8 months ago. I spent the first two days in Austin on a roller-coaster of emotion and a lot of time crying on and off. The first day of looking at houses was simply depressing because I went from looking at beautiful houses that I could not afford and that I really wanted, to houses that I could not imagine my family living in. Then on Wed. when I had almost given up and we stopped in front of the last house on my realtors list I knew this was the one. One step in the door and I was home. Do you know how you just know? That was it for me. The only thing left was to suffer the wait to see if we were approved or if someone had slipped their application in before us. I was at the realtors office 10 minutes before 8 the next morning with my application and deposits in hand trusting that this was supposed to be mine. So when the receptionist opened the door I stepped in with my spiel only for her to tell me the realtor in charge of my property was not feeling well and would be in a little late, to which I said "no problem I have my knitting and I am happy to wait". You see, there was no way I was going to take a chance of someone slipping in front of me. He did finally arrive 3 1/2 hours later--hey my sock that I was knitting was almost finished so I was good with that. Then he told me that it would be late that afternoon or the next morning before I would know anything. My heart fell to my stomach and I had that sick feeling all over again and the "what ifs" began to circle in my head: what if he got sick and didn't process it today, what if I something was missing from my application, what if they couldn't get a hold of someone they needed to verify or worse yet what if they said NO? Too many thoughts and the only thing I could think of was to go find a knit shop and that is precisely what I did. I don't know about you , for me, just being in a yarn shop surrounded by fiber yumminess always makes me feel better. I just have to say that it really is a small world- I know that sounds cliche and yet it is true. Here is my real life demonstration that we live in a small world. I had been chatting with a new friend whom I had never met in person, only through Ravelry and there she sat in the knit shop that I wandered in to. I kept looking at her like I should know her but really couldn't figure out how. Then someone said her name and I knew it was the knitter I had been pm for weeks. I had seen her picture on her Ravelry page. What a serendipity! We exchanged greetings and then visited for a few hours which helped to pass the waiting time and just when she had to leave the call came--I recognized the realtors number and I broke out in a small sweat and nervousness gripped my body and a thousand scenarios ran through my head, you know the ones I am talking about .....and then he said it : we've decided to approve you and it was like music to my ears and I let out a silent YES ! Woo hoo I had a place to live!!! Now all that was left to do was to go home and pack and call the movers. It was really happening. I only wonder how I might have felt if only I would have let go a bit sooner and allowed the Universe to handle it for me?
Now I'm sure you are wondering how I did with the fiber fasting and the healthy eating habits while I was in Austin and going through all of this turmoil. I did great with the fiber fast I would have to say because I only purchased a few things--now before you go getting all judgmental let me explain--this is the excuse thing that I talked about in my last blog--Teehee. I purchased yarn for the International Sock swap that I am in because I didn't have anything in the desired colorway of my partner and really who would want a pair of socks that is a color they would never wear? You have to agree that it was a necessary purchase-right? There was one more purchase though and that was yarn to make the Rock Island shawl and let me just say that it was the last two skeins in that colorway and they were having a 20% off sale and come on what knitter can pass up 20% off? Ok so I choked and yet in reality my fiber fast doesn't officially start until the 17th of this month. (I know you are thinking excuse) As I sit here typing I am aware of all of the excuses and "wow" the awareness is astounding for me. It really makes me think. This fast is going to be harder than I thought. Especially because while in Austin they told me about a yarn crawl that they have in Oct.--the temptation makes me think about Adam and Eve and I wonder how the temptation made them feel? At least I have several months to prepare myself--stay strong is the mantra in my mind at the present moment. Results, results, I want results. Do I even need to go on the crawl? Rhinebeck, Rhinebeck, Rhinebeck!!!
As for the food in Austin---well just let me say it's AWESOME! So many great restaurants and street vendors to explore and so little time. There was a street vendor with the most amazing cupcakes and on Tues. which was my sons birthday I had a carrot cupcake in his honor. Super Yummy! It is safe to say that I ate my way through the emotions that I was having. I ate at a different mexican rest. virtually every night. It was wonderful and then I came home on Friday and had and still have swollen ankles and sore feet and after packing all day yesterday a sore knee. Which brings me to this moment when I say to you now, I know why I want to be eating a healthy "live it". Because I am sore and it is painful and all of these signs are simply my body saying "hello, wake up, quit torturing me. Now I must listen. So for today I will share with you that I am enjoying 1 gallon of distilled water and the juice of 1/2 lemon. It's time to let go of the junk that I thought was my comfort because let me tell you that I am not comfort-able now! I am very UN-COMFORTABLE! On the plus side of moving to Austin I found the whole foods grocery store that is the headquarters for the company and it is one of the most beautiful grocery stores that I have been in. I know that they will always have amazing healthy options for me. Farmers markets are a real bonus there as well--I can't wait for all of the local fresh produce.
Speaking of letting go- I am really not loving this packing thing, although I will say that it really forces me to see all of the "stuff" that I have. I am forced to ask myself once again if I really need all of the things that I have. In some situations it would be fine to let go of the objects that I have not used or even forgotten that I have. And just when I am ready to let go emotion swings in a that little voice in my head says "do you really want to part with it?" I seem to always find a way to justify something.
Today my pastor said something that hit home for me. She said, "if we have to justify something-then there's something wrong. Hmm, I know that there are many times that I have to justify things in my mind quite a bit. I imagine that when I do that there are many things that are wrong. Do we blame others? she asked. Do I listen when my heart tells me something or do I do what I want and think I will reconcile it later?" I thought that all of these statements were very poignant and I have thought about them all day. Even when I went to the grocery store and thought I will just buy a package of oreos and share them with the kids and start my "live it" tomorrow and then I paused and thought to myself--"self, what are you doing?" and I passed right by the cookie aisle and bought my water. It was not so easy though. How many times a day do we go about life and we do not even stop to listen? Listen to our bodies, listen to our thoughts, listen to the words of others speaking to us and most of all do I listen to what spirit says to me? I must admit that I need more time in the silence to listen.
Letting go is probably one of the hardest things to do and yet it can also be one of the most important things that we must learn to do. For it is in the letting go of things that no longer serve us that new and greater things come to us. Blessings beyond our wildest dreams.
Sunday, June 10, 2012
Saturday, June 2, 2012
June 2, 2012
I finally did it--I am writing my first blog entry. My idea when I began to think of writing a blog was to share my journey for the next year and beyond..... I have decided that it will be a good idea to knit from my stash for a year and to not buy any more yarn. Yes I am going on a Fiber Fast. Eek! I know that it's hard to believe that a tried and true knitter could ever utter those words. I must confess that there are going to be a few exceptions as I am a member of a few clubs and I also may need a few skeins to finish some projects that have been started and other than that no new projects are to be purchased. I know that sounds like an excuse and my intent is to give more results than excuses. Let me give just a bit more background information as to why I would even want to consider a Fiber Fast. My friends Elizabeth and Rachel and I have committed to each other that we are going to go on an adventure to Rhinebeck, NY October, 2013. Keeping that in mind we also decided that in order to secure the massive funds that we plan to spend in Rhinebeck the best way to do that would be to go on a Fiber Fast and knit from our stashes. In theory the idea sounds great. I figure if I knit my stash down then I will have no guilt whatsoever about doing some retail therapy in Rhinebeck. Sounds good eh? Think of the money I can save if I don't buy yarn the way I do now. You don't know me, just trust me that I could save some serious money. I have been a knitter for 39 years (did I admit that outloud?) and I have quite a stash built up and I am pretty excited about all of the things I have on my to do list. The official date of the start of the Fiber Fast is June 17, 2012. Let me explain why--The LYS where I work is having a Unique Sheep Trunk show and since they are one of my favorite yarn suppliers I just know me and know that I can't pass up a chance to get some more of their yarn before the fast starts. You know how when you decide to go on a diet the day before you start you eat all of your favorite foods? It's the same with yarn for me. In fact, since I decided to do this I have actually been building my stash more--it's awful. Come on, you know that if you were me you would choose your start date the same way. teehee.
As for the second part of my blog-the healthy aspect let me explain a bit. I know that I am getting healthy with my yarn consumption and I don't know how many of you realize that when we have an addiction in one part of our life that it spills in to one or more aspects of the rest of our life. For me I have an addiction to food. All sorts of yummy food. I know all of the right foods to eat as do most of us. And I know the proper consumption of water that I need to be drinking each day. Combined with the proper amount of exercise that I could be doing each day. I sound pretty smart--right? I actually am really smart and yet there is a part of me that has ignored doing all of the right things for my body.
SOOOOOO I thought what a great way to get myself on track with doing the healthiest things for my body and my life than to blog about my journey. I want you all to know that it is my goal to lose 100 pounds over the next year. I need to be a little clearer I am choosing to lighten up 100 pounds over the next year. (I must be mindful of my conscious language patterns) I can't believe I said it out loud--Whew do I feel better.
I actually have a plan and that is to go back to eating a raw food "live-it" (love conscious language) Many years ago I lived a raw food lifestyle and felt amazing and looked amazing and then one day some emotion that I can't even name set me on an unhealthy path and I have made excuse after excuse of why I had gained the weight. Some of them include: daughter leaving home, being on steroids, gall bladder removal, husband losing job, and the list goes on and on. The truth is that I am the only one who can control what does go in my mouth. It seems to me that in the past I have allowed emotions to rule my hand to mouth actions and all that did was to add the inches to my hip, thighs, buttocks etc....you get the picture I am sure.
I know that to maintain a healthy balance it is important to do it in all aspects of my life and so I am combining two of my favorite aspects that I am working on deeply to share in this blog. I know that this is going to be quite a journey-- a fun adventure and I can't wait to share each step with you. I am holding a theme in mind as I begin this journey and that is am I giving a result or an excuse for my actions.
I challenge each of you to choose an area of your life where you might choose to have some more discipline and join me on this beautiful journey of life. Each day is a new beginning.......
I finally did it--I am writing my first blog entry. My idea when I began to think of writing a blog was to share my journey for the next year and beyond..... I have decided that it will be a good idea to knit from my stash for a year and to not buy any more yarn. Yes I am going on a Fiber Fast. Eek! I know that it's hard to believe that a tried and true knitter could ever utter those words. I must confess that there are going to be a few exceptions as I am a member of a few clubs and I also may need a few skeins to finish some projects that have been started and other than that no new projects are to be purchased. I know that sounds like an excuse and my intent is to give more results than excuses. Let me give just a bit more background information as to why I would even want to consider a Fiber Fast. My friends Elizabeth and Rachel and I have committed to each other that we are going to go on an adventure to Rhinebeck, NY October, 2013. Keeping that in mind we also decided that in order to secure the massive funds that we plan to spend in Rhinebeck the best way to do that would be to go on a Fiber Fast and knit from our stashes. In theory the idea sounds great. I figure if I knit my stash down then I will have no guilt whatsoever about doing some retail therapy in Rhinebeck. Sounds good eh? Think of the money I can save if I don't buy yarn the way I do now. You don't know me, just trust me that I could save some serious money. I have been a knitter for 39 years (did I admit that outloud?) and I have quite a stash built up and I am pretty excited about all of the things I have on my to do list. The official date of the start of the Fiber Fast is June 17, 2012. Let me explain why--The LYS where I work is having a Unique Sheep Trunk show and since they are one of my favorite yarn suppliers I just know me and know that I can't pass up a chance to get some more of their yarn before the fast starts. You know how when you decide to go on a diet the day before you start you eat all of your favorite foods? It's the same with yarn for me. In fact, since I decided to do this I have actually been building my stash more--it's awful. Come on, you know that if you were me you would choose your start date the same way. teehee.
As for the second part of my blog-the healthy aspect let me explain a bit. I know that I am getting healthy with my yarn consumption and I don't know how many of you realize that when we have an addiction in one part of our life that it spills in to one or more aspects of the rest of our life. For me I have an addiction to food. All sorts of yummy food. I know all of the right foods to eat as do most of us. And I know the proper consumption of water that I need to be drinking each day. Combined with the proper amount of exercise that I could be doing each day. I sound pretty smart--right? I actually am really smart and yet there is a part of me that has ignored doing all of the right things for my body.
SOOOOOO I thought what a great way to get myself on track with doing the healthiest things for my body and my life than to blog about my journey. I want you all to know that it is my goal to lose 100 pounds over the next year. I need to be a little clearer I am choosing to lighten up 100 pounds over the next year. (I must be mindful of my conscious language patterns) I can't believe I said it out loud--Whew do I feel better.
I actually have a plan and that is to go back to eating a raw food "live-it" (love conscious language) Many years ago I lived a raw food lifestyle and felt amazing and looked amazing and then one day some emotion that I can't even name set me on an unhealthy path and I have made excuse after excuse of why I had gained the weight. Some of them include: daughter leaving home, being on steroids, gall bladder removal, husband losing job, and the list goes on and on. The truth is that I am the only one who can control what does go in my mouth. It seems to me that in the past I have allowed emotions to rule my hand to mouth actions and all that did was to add the inches to my hip, thighs, buttocks etc....you get the picture I am sure.
I know that to maintain a healthy balance it is important to do it in all aspects of my life and so I am combining two of my favorite aspects that I am working on deeply to share in this blog. I know that this is going to be quite a journey-- a fun adventure and I can't wait to share each step with you. I am holding a theme in mind as I begin this journey and that is am I giving a result or an excuse for my actions.
I challenge each of you to choose an area of your life where you might choose to have some more discipline and join me on this beautiful journey of life. Each day is a new beginning.......
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